Reminiscin' ...

a lot of people think that I'm a dumb person...
maybe because of my attitude and personality...
many of those people who doesn't know me believe that I'm just an ordinary person...
I am ordinary but I can do what others can't...

Last night...
I cry...(without a big damn reason)...
I just remember the feeling I felt when i was in High School...
I have many memories left in LHS...
My dearest friends and some people who doesn't care for me...
Including my crush in HS...
HE is someone who I care most...

but...
I really can't understand boys' feeling whenever a girl confess their feeling to them...
maybe, HE's shock knowing that there is someone who likes HIM...

Anyways...
I remember what my friends gave me in my 17th bday...
I makes me blush... and blush whenever I remember it...
My friends request HIM to lend the rose which my friend bought for me...
HE accept my friends request...
it was during MATH class (under Ms. Villafranca)...
my friends told Maam that they are going to conduct a game...
the game was all about Trigonometry...
I was included in the game...
Actually I'm the third contestant...
A friend of mine blindfolded me and the word that I need to guess is behind me...

after 30 seconds...(I can't guess the word 'coz there is no given clue)...
a song (the song is "Nakapagtataka by Sponge Cola") was played...
and when I open my eyes...
I saw HIM standing at the door...
HE's holding a rose (an orange one...)and a BOUQUET of LETTERS from my friends...
After giving me the rose and the bouquet of letters...
HE said "Sorry... Please forget what I've done in the past..."
Actually... HE didn't mean to hurt me...
I'm the one who hurts myself...

But after...
HE just move away from me...
It hurts but I must accept it... I don't own HIM...
BUT STILL... it hurts...
my feelings for HIM doesn't change at all...

But then...
my personality as a hopeless romantic doesn't change a lot...
I still hope that someday a PRINCE will come to save me from my depressions and failures in my LIFE...

Jealousy... =(

is it jealousy?...
I don't own him...
HE's not my property...

BUT...
What is this feeling that I feel whenever I see HIM talking to my friend...
HE always talks to vhea (actually prati c vhea ang kausap nya... huhuhu.. )

I always say to myself that...
"Lea,it's OK..."
"HE's not worth it... rather HE had a GF..."
"why do you push yourself to HIM???"
"do you want HISTORY repeat itself???"

I've been in love for the past 2 years...
but I felt disappointment after...
LOVE sometimes gives me HEADACHE...(honestly... )
Like what my sister said...
"Ate... di nmn hinahanap yan eh... dumarating yan... malay mo di lang isa yung darating... bka dalawa o higit pa..."

Kung tutuusin tama sya...
Bat ako naghahanap?
masarap tlagang magmahal pero kung me nagmamay ari n skanya.....

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Si God n ang bahala...
alam nmn Nya lahat eh...
di nmn Nya tayo hahayaang masaktan dahil sa LOVE n sya ring dahilan kung bait tayo nbubuhay sa maliit n mundong ito...

A very special SOMEONE...

for those who haven't watch this video...
I will let you feel what I feel the first time I saw it...

It will make you feel special... feel sorry... feel sad... and fall in love...

Most of the people watch this clip cried a lot...

Ahem.. Ahem...
Well... Just watch it, feel it and enjoy it...

Hope you like it...

Oh! there's more...
here's the English version of the song...

there some phrase here that makes sense...
the english version was made by Jini

"BECAUSE I'M A GIRL" by: Kiss
Version English
I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)

(CHORUS)

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

a COMIC person???

I think... I just misjudge him... HE'S not so bad like what I've just said on my first posts...


Maybe.. tlagang gnun lang xa...

maxadong kampante s lahat ng bagay n nasa paligid nya... kc nga nmn isa xang PLAYER...
he's relaxed on some things n di ko nmn alam...


HE'S a person who knows how to laugh with HIS friends..
... who knows to enjoy life being with someone HE loves...
... who make such act where people around HIM can laugh or smile...


HAY...
even though I accept the truth... still, it aches for some reasons...
but I know this feeling will vanish sooner or later...

I just wish that WE can be close friends for some reasons or incidents...
I... just wish that HE will talk to me... or ask me questions... or anything....
I hope this things will be possible lalo na't malapit na ang SPORTS FEST s school....

sna makakuha ulit ako ng shots and stolen shots s upcoming SPORTS FEST.

BUT...
A VERY BIG BUT...
HE will notice me once I ask HIM to have some pics...

OH! NO!

What am I thinking???
Oh! No! Am I stupid or what???

It's to obvious (classmate ko pnmn xa)... even though I'm a transparent person, still... I have DIGNITY and MORALITY... Huhuhuhu...

A BIG NO! NO!

Wait a second...
Di ba sbi ko kakalimutan ko n xa?
well inaatake n nmn ako ng skit ko na pagiging SPORTS MINDED.

BETCHA BYE GOLLY WOW...
I must forget everything about HIM and start a new life as a full-pledged student...

Well...

my quote for this week...

LOVE MAKES EVERYONE BLIND... MAKES EVERYONE CRAZY... MAKES EVERYONE STUPID...
I must stop it for once and for all...

A Crush turns to be a CRASH...!!!

to all the people who has a CRUSH...

bka magulat kau sa totoong ugali nila...

di mo aakalain n ang taong mukhang perfect s mata moh... biglang naging isang malaking kasinungalingang hindi mo makayng matanggap...


i have a crush ... naging crush ko xa dhil sa pagiging magaling sa basketball and HE'S the CAPTAIN BALL... magaling talaga xa... sinusunod ng mga colleagues and higher years n kasama sa game...

maybe that's one of the reason why we won in the previous TAGIS LAKAS (2nd sem AY 2007-2008)...
maganda ang leadership... mukhang ANGHEL... n may BRACES ang ngipin...
mejo chubby pero maputi at matangkad... magalang kung tutuusin kasi nagpapicture ako sa kanya and HE called ME... "ATE"

even though he doesn't know me... i know him on his name...
HANGGANG DUN LANG ANG ALAM KO SA KANYA ng mga panahon n iyon...
HE... a very good example of a model student... HE's NEAT, GOOD LOOKING, MAGALANG, MABAIT... yun at yun ang umiikot sa ulo ko kapag nababanggit ang pangaln nya...

PERO...

NGAYON....

HE's my classmate in four of my subjects...
I... thought HE's someone who's intelligent and knows how to BEHAVE as an educated person...

AYUN...

PASAWAY... nag cacutting class... magpapaalam n magsi CR after 10min...15min... hanggang matapos ang period WLA xa sa KLASE lalo't higit boring ang prof... (talagang BORING as in...)

tapos ang ingay sa loob ng room... pinapatugtog ang PDA or ung CP nya as if no one hears it except HIM... ang lakas ng loob... in front of the PROF pa yun ha... (plibhasa kilala xa ng PROF...)...

HAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

HE doesn't know someone cares about HIM (tama b ang grammar???)
But I can't blame HIM...
buhay NYA iyun...

gnun talaga cguro ang mga tipo kong lalaki...
matangkad.. maputi... tahimik sa unang tingin pero pag nakilala mo maingay pla...
buti nlang and i don't fall for HIM...(tama b ang grammar???)

yan kasi ang npapala ng katulad kong asa ng asa...
EXPECT and EXPECT but you GET nothing FROM your EXPECTATIONS...
buti nlng natutunan ko nang wag mahulog maxado sa taong di k nmn papansinin...

WELL... magaaral nlng ako... BUTI PA YUNG LIBRO, napapansin kapg kelangan ng assignment PERO AKO kpag di n kailangan parang wla lng at nabubulok s isang tabi... cguro magaantay nlng ako ng taong magbubuklat sa akin at babasahin ako ng habang buhay....