at first...
I was just expecting that Kevin will notice me...
After my 18th birthday...
He finally knows me...
I'm so happy that Kevin knows my name...
He even call me, smile at me, and greets me even if I have a class...
I SMILE...
...because he finally notice me...even if I just admire him as a normal, typical guy... he appreciates what I'm doing... especially when we meet at the hallway...( I just say "Hi! =) ")
...because he knows how to appreciate someone... even though I'm an ordinary girl... still he knows me...
...because he's for real... he's just a room away from me...
...because my messages reach him... ( by means of Gelden... =) )
...because he knows my name...
I CRY
...because I still feel empty... even if he knows me... even if he appreciates me... still... my feelings doesn't change at all... he still remains as my crush...
...because I always expect more than what he's doing for me...
...because I can't reach the status of his life...
...because I can't LOVE him...
I FROWN
...because he just making jokes like: he said to Gracious that He misses me... of course that's a big joke... yet I accept it as a compliment... =(
...because I can't talk to him... eye to eye... heart to heart... but if that thing happens... even if it's IMPOSSIBLE... I will be speechless...
...because I always see him together with his girlfriend... ( still I wish all the best for them... =) )
...because I'm just a typical ordinary student of New Era that admire his playing skills as a basketball player...
All in all...
I will just accept the truth and face the reality that I just admire him and he knows it...
And I thank him for being good to me...
Thank you...
