a miserable life of a poor lady...

hehehehehe....

ang drama ng title noh...

ngaun lng ulit pla ako nkapagupdate ng mga bagay bagay d2 sa net...

halos 2 weeks din akong nkakababad sa mga job sites d2 sa philippines...

and the other thing pla....

ang hirap maghanap ng trabaho...

maraming nagooffer ng mga internship pero xempre i don't belong dun...

hehehehe...

ang hirap din kapag wlang backer...

i try to view the newspapers... specifically, the classified ads section....

mukha n nga akong desperada sa paghahanap ng trabaho that will qualify an undergrad like me....

kaso...

life is so bitter to me...

hehehehehe....

i have send my resume to the different companies... and most of that companies are call centers....

they are accepting undergrads like me....

but....

you must work as a full-time...

i prefer to work as a part- time employee....

kaya cguro wla pang tumatawag skin...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

at least i try...

pero mhaba p ang bakasyon...

kya habang di pa pasukan...

maghahanap at maghahanap ako ng trabaho pra maipagpatuloy ko ung studies ko...

konting adjustments lng cguro ang kailangan pra makagawa ako ng mga praan s lyf ko...

hehehehe...

basta...

kaya ko ito...

hehehehehe...

kelangan kong mkagraduate at hindi ako papayag n mgiging irregular student ako o magstop ako sa pagaaral...

hehehehehe....

un ang pangarap ko sa ngaun...

wish me luck nlng ha...

the last buzzer from NEU...

last friday...

I, joan, may and berna went to NEU to defend our DBMS case study to Sir Gaucho...

actually, we were there since 10am even if our defense was on 1pm...

and after a long waiting...

at exactly 1:30pm... (we wait for 30minutes beyond our scheduled time because other students are also there to pass and defend their finished case study to Sir Gaucho)....

we start to discuss and defend our work...

it actually last for only 30 min. (we finishd at 2:05 pm)...

Sir Gaucho only noticed some unparalled use of the PK and FK...

the Hardware and Software section of our documentation...

there is no DATE entity that must be included in our system...

and that's it...

we will pass the edited documentation and rewrited ERD in the manila paper on Monday (March 23)...

Sir Gaucho also noticed that we have this relational schema and he was happy to see that we have such kind of thing that the other group doesn't have...

he also said that our DBMS is good because of its simplicity and and we easily understand all of the things that is included in our documentation....

then...

we left the faculty... maybe it was 2:15pm...

we stay on one of the rooms in the third floor and we start to edit our documentation...

we stay in Rm.318 to edit our docu...

while editing the ERD and the docu...

we eat my baon and laugh while discussing all of the things that Sir Gaucho have said...

when suddenly...

we hear a noise from nowhere...

it sounds like a chair that is being pulled at the corridor...

but when we looked outside noyhing is there... no chair and no student at all...

we only think that its just a noise from somewhere and continue on what we are doing...

then...

about past 5pm...

we set off in another room (Rm.316) because the janitress at Rm.318 said that she's going to clean the room and we may stay at the lobby if we want to...

when we are in Rm.316....

a CS student talk to us....

he ask us if Maam Villapando can boorow the laptop because Maam Villapando will present a report in front of her classmate in the SGS...

but...

we decided not to lend the laptop because we are still editing our docu...

then he evaporate... still looking for someone who can help Maam Villapando...

then...

maybe 5:30pm...

the janitress of the Rm.316 came and she's going to clean the room...

when we are about to leave the room...

we saw a blue handkerchief at the floor...

i thought that it was own by May, but she said it was not hers...

if it wasn't the handkerchief of anyone of us.... maybe it was from the janitress...

but...

the janitress just sweep it away together with the other dirt and garbages inside the room...

it's a horrifying thing.... =S

we try to edit our docu outside the Rm.318...

but suddenly...

Maam Villapando appeared... Joan and May run away... but I and Berna try to escape but we have no choice coz she have seen us...

She ask us if she can borrow the laptop coz her presentation is not able to run on other laptops...

then we go to the faculty again...

and charge the laptop and insert the disc...

the presenation was not able to run in Media Player so i try to run it using the Nero Player...

then...

it run...

we all hear the voice of Maam Villapando and Sir Jay Fuentes...

Maam said that their presentation will be at the Accre room and she will just borrow it until she finished her presentation...

maybe about 6pm...

I enter at the faculty to help the masteral students set up their laptops...

Maam Juliet Ramos is also there... she has her own laptop... but she didn't use it...

and we wait outside the library...

an hour passed...

the presentation wasn't finished yet...

so we decided to sit above the tables and do some wacky things...

we first try to make a wave... from the end of one's arm up to the other one...

then when darkness and silencre fills up the floor...

we start to tell horror movies that we have watched...

the Grudge, Ring-O, One Missed Call, the DollMaster, etc.

we are sometimes horrified on the stories that we are narrating....

and have fun on all the things that we are saying...

we laugh....

and talk about many issues....

then...

Maam Villapando invites us to enter the Accre room because of the gratitude that she owes us...

She invites us to eat inside and drink...

she gave us Lemon square cakes and Coke....

we noticed that Sir Bouing (he is the teacher of Maam Villapando and the other Masteral students inside the room they are presenting their audio-visual work and Sir will grade it...)is speaking in tagalog and laugh together with the other professors...

then...

Sir Bouing ask us to stand up and observe the things that he will instruct to his students...

he gave a sheet of paper to each and every student and instruct them to create something on the piece of paper that he gave to them...

he only gave them a minute to do it....

the 4 of the students make a boat, 2 of them make an airplane, and Maam Juliet make a tie...

Sir Bouing explain what are the meanings of the things his student have done...

the only thing we like is his explanation about the tie that Maam Juliet have made...

he says that the tie represents Maam Juliet goal to tie all the people inside this university and make a bond with another...

then... he shut the lights and let us feel the darkness...

then... he open it again and explain why he shut the light...

he says that if a person cannot see the anything and he/she nothing to do with it or he/she has doing nothing to enlighten the room... he/she will just bring the university into darkness and failure...

then... we applause for his nice lecture...

he thanked us for being the observers of his class...

and also with the other professors...

we left accre and went to the third floor to get Maam Villapando's things...

I've observed that she is afraid of the dark... coz she's saying something about creepy things that may appear while we are walking...

then...

we enter the faculty and after a minute or two... we left the room and shut the lights...

as we are walking...

maybe...

its a part of my "kapraningan"....

i hear a buzzer that cracks the silence in NEU...

i tell it to May, Joan and Berna...

and when we are near in the main gate...

i saw that the lights at the Gym are still open...

i think that someone is still there and someone is practicing...

May said that it was just Kuya Larry who just testing the buzzer if it still works well...

but...

it doesn't change my opinion that someone is still there...

then...

Maam Villapando get our name so that she give us a credit on the things that we have done on that day....

hehehehe.... additional grade in CS242...

we left Era maybe about 830pm...

and silence exist in the whole university...

and at my last glimpse at the Gym...

thinking that maybe...

someone is there...

and will make my day happy again...

the end of School Year is near...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

ang bilis2 tlga...

2m...

tpos n ang mga exams...

malapit n kming matapos s mga defense...

karamihan...

bakasyon n ang iniicp...

boring nmn n kc ang exam week...

masarap mgpakasaya pagkatpos ng mga hardship s mga profs...

hay...

mamimiss ko tlga ung mga friends ko...

ung mga taong nging kaclose ko sa ERA...

ung mga nagpapatawa...

nangiinis...

mga kumag n nanjan sa tabi tabi...

mga friends...

and crush...

hay...

lahat nga nmn ay may katapusan...

hirap tlgang mbuhay ngaun...

pero at least...

naexperience kong maging college student...

uminom ng mga "HARD" drinks...

nagka allergy...

nagkaroon ng mga katampuhan...

hay...

sana maextend ung college lyf ko...

sana lng talga...

hay...

the year will now end...

hay....

malapit n mag end ang sem...

well...

ako malapit nrin matapos ung lyf ko as a student...

sna makakuha ako ng trabaho or mkuha ko ung scholarship grant ko sa NEC...

i really need money or any support for my studies...

kaya i really need to be strong lalo n ngaun...

i some ways...

makakya ko panmn cgurong maging isang matinong tao...

bakit b kc ang hirap mag aral ngaun eh...

kaya cguro kelangan ko ng magsumikap sa pagahahanap ng trabaho...

sana cpagin ako...

at sana khit papaano di ako maging sakitin...

un lng...

hehehehe.....

A little too much...

wla lng...

i think OA n tlga ako minsan...

i maybe frail...

i maybe sensitive..

but i feel...

it's too weird to act like a child when a situation occurs...

maybe i'm just OA...

but still i want to be me...

as in... ME...

no one can change that but i don't get myself....

nagiging weird n ung perception q sa life...

maybe adik lng tlga ako...

gnun tlga lng cguro un....

hmmmm.....

lucky day ko pla ngaun...

hehehehe...

kc may nkita akong mong...

iba tlga ung ngiti nya...

whahahahahaha....

praning nnmn ako...

hehehehehe....

i think GF nya ung pinuntahan nya knina...

well i think mong does love her...

hehehehehehe....

crush ko lng nmn ung kumag n un eh...

inspirasyon sa maliit n unibersidad 2lad ng Era....

basta mamimiss ko tlga xa...

hehehehehe....

I will miss his smile...

i hope...

i wish...

i beg...

sana hindi n i2 ung last tym n mkikita ko xang ngumiti...

sana hindi nrin i2 ung last tym n mkikita ko xa...

sana lng tlga...

if God will give me a chance to work and earn money just to continue my studies...

i will not regret to accept it...

i hope that my guardian angel will help me do all the things that i need to do in order for me to survive in all of the trials in my life that I am encountering right now...

sana tlga nageexist ung mga ganung angel...

i will miss their smile...

especially his smile...

wla lang iba tlga ung smile nya...

sna nga mkakita p ako ng ibang tulad ng smile nya...

mukhang nkakatakot pero deep inside matino, mabait and true to himself...

he may not be as perfect as my hero...

but he's my hero in disguise...

he save me from my great fall...

and the rest...



is history...

hay..

sana lng tlga...

bk8 b mganda ang likod ng mga guys???

ung likod mismo ung tinutukoy ko ah...

hindi ung butt nila...

anyways...

one time my nkita akong guy...
tumayo xa and pmunta sa isang sulok...
may tinatawagan xa...

and ng tumalikod xa...
ang ganda ng tindig nya...
ang puti ng polo, ang puti p nya...

even if di mkinis ang mukha nya...
nagmukha xang isang gentle guy dhil sa likod nya...

.......

one time...
tiningnan ko rin ung likod ni Mong...

hmmmmm....

aus lng...
straight, and "square shoulder" ang drama...
mukhang unan ung likod nya...
ang lapad kc eh...
ang sarap yakapin...
joke2 lng po..

hehehehe...

ung ibang mga guy n nkikita ko at nsasalubong...
ung likod nla ung una qng pinapancn...

ung iba kuba kubaan...
ung iba mxadong straight...
ung iba mlinis...
ung iba pawisan...

pero ang common sa knilang lahat...
msarap yakapin ung mga likod nilang malalapad...
ung tipong pde mong unanan...
pde mong iyakan...
at higit sa lhat, pde mong yakapin...

sna may myakap n ako...
hehehehe...

hopeless romantic nnmn kc ung drama ko ngaun...
kakatamad n kcng pumasok...
nmimiss ko ung brace nya...
kbadtrip...
hehehehe....

Ang buhay estudyante... bow!!! =D

ang hirap tlgang mabuhay sa EARTH...

bat b kc kelangan pang mging epal ako sa mundong ibabaw...

pero infairness... ung pgiging epal ko... may sense nmn khit papaano...

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bilang isang 2nd year college student...
bilang isang 18 years old n human being sa EARTH...
at bilang isang epal... hehehehe...

nagkaroon nmn ako ng mga experiences n khit papaano ay nkapagturo sa akin ng mga bagay- bagay n dapat kong ausin at mtutuhan...


back in HS...
isa lng akong low profile, mukhang basahan (self- pity nnmn ako), at no one expect that sa mukhang kong 'to eh may alam pla sa EARTH khit papaano

ung tipong thimik at bhala n si BATMAN sa lahat ang drama ko

isa akong UNDERDOG...
buti n nga un pra di ako mautusan ng mga cm8's ko nun...
kakatamad lng tlaga kc minsan eh... kakatamad kc ung mga paperworks eh... hehehehe...

khit papaano...
tinuruan nila ako kung paano mging mature sa lhat ng mkikita sa paligid...
kc cla pag nagicp... pinag icipan tlga...
khit mga nerdy people ang kramihan...
HAPPY HAPPy prin ung drama nming lahat...
batas batasan s lhat... hehehehe...
masaya khit pinapagalitan kc halatang nagkokopyahan...
brutal sa kalokohan...
masaya sa lhat ng katarantaduhan...
grumadweyt ng sabay2...
umiyak sa graduation day...
reunion ng reunion pra my connection prin...

hay iba tlga ang HS life...
bata p kc kmi nun cguro kaya ganyan ang pamumuhay nmin....
wlang magawa kya ganyan ang trip...
kakamiss tlaga...

........................................................
ngaung college n ako...
dming nagbago...
ung language ko...
ung lifestyle ko (nandun prin c bespren eyeliner...)
ung uniform...
new friends and new crush...
new attitude to build and personality to develop...

I'll try to be me (ung garapal ung pagkilos, wlang pumipigil sa trip kong gwin, at wlang hiya sa mga ginagawa ko...)

mejo nhirapan ako...
kc conservative ung pagkakakilala ko sa mga tao d2...
kelangan ng adjustments...
then I try to adjust sa mga new friends ko...hehehehehe...
iba kc ung ugali nla sa nkagisnan kong mga tao sa LHS...
aus lng...
unique nmn ang bawat tao sa EARTH db?! =D
nhirapan lng ako cguro sa lhat ng knilang mga pinaggagawa...
di ko nmn cla masisisi or masusumbatan kc iba din cla nung HS...
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ngaung 2 taon n ang lumipas...
i try to reminisce my life from my HS memories up to the present...
maraming pagbabago at pagkakapareho...

ung isa kong cm8 nung HS... pnagmamalaki ang brand ng yosi n gingamit... (pinagmamaybang nya ung brand ng YOSI n papatay sa baga nya... hehehehe... joke =D )
ung iba may nagbago ng looks...
ung iba may mga xota n...
and most of them are busy studying (ka echosan ng mga PLAT ang "studying HARD" n phrase n yan)

sa college...
some are maturing from their looks up to their inner personalities and attitudes...
some are trying to study hard...
some are improving...
and some are feeling...

marami png mga taon n darating c lyf ko... (cguro...)
kya i'll try to be me until the end of my life...
mahirap mging plastic noh...
di kya flexible ang mga taong pinaplastic ang sarili...

kaya...
SO HELP me GOD nlng tlga... =D