Tuesday, April 14, 2009

A Decision To Make...



I'm back again after a long week of vacation...

well..

something got into my mind last holy week...

I need to change something about me...

It's either my self-esteem, my personality, my looks etc.

I think that since my college life is at stake...

I need to grow more and develop my skills...

I shouldn't hide my true self or I should say my true identity to all the people that I've met before...

I don't know where I should start...

maybe...

I should adjust my lifestyle...

Bring more confidence inside me...

and stand up thru the crowd where I am standing at...

I think being more unique and skillful will be the key for my transformation...

Hehehehe....

It's a bit dramatic but I really need this kind of change...

It's for my own good nmn...



Well...

I will just wait for the results of my job hunt and scholarship...

Patience is a virtue... I think...

Hmmmm....

Saturday, April 4, 2009

It's now OVER!!!

One day...

I've realized that my day dreaming is over...

He's not worth it...

He's just a part of my college life...

He's just an ordinary guy....



It's enough....

From this very day...

I promise and cross it to my heart...

I will never ever be so fragile and easily hooked up onto someone without knowing their true identity and their true color...



It's over...

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

a miserable life of a poor lady...

hehehehehe....

ang drama ng title noh...

ngaun lng ulit pla ako nkapagupdate ng mga bagay bagay d2 sa net...

halos 2 weeks din akong nkakababad sa mga job sites d2 sa philippines...

and the other thing pla....

ang hirap maghanap ng trabaho...

maraming nagooffer ng mga internship pero xempre i don't belong dun...

hehehehe...

ang hirap din kapag wlang backer...

i try to view the newspapers... specifically, the classified ads section....

mukha n nga akong desperada sa paghahanap ng trabaho that will qualify an undergrad like me....

kaso...

life is so bitter to me...

hehehehehe....

i have send my resume to the different companies... and most of that companies are call centers....

they are accepting undergrads like me....

but....

you must work as a full-time...

i prefer to work as a part- time employee....

kaya cguro wla pang tumatawag skin...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

at least i try...

pero mhaba p ang bakasyon...

kya habang di pa pasukan...

maghahanap at maghahanap ako ng trabaho pra maipagpatuloy ko ung studies ko...

konting adjustments lng cguro ang kailangan pra makagawa ako ng mga praan s lyf ko...

hehehehe...

basta...

kaya ko ito...

hehehehehe...

kelangan kong mkagraduate at hindi ako papayag n mgiging irregular student ako o magstop ako sa pagaaral...

hehehehehe....

un ang pangarap ko sa ngaun...

wish me luck nlng ha...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

the last buzzer from NEU...

last friday...

I, joan, may and berna went to NEU to defend our DBMS case study to Sir Gaucho...

actually, we were there since 10am even if our defense was on 1pm...

and after a long waiting...

at exactly 1:30pm... (we wait for 30minutes beyond our scheduled time because other students are also there to pass and defend their finished case study to Sir Gaucho)....

we start to discuss and defend our work...

it actually last for only 30 min. (we finishd at 2:05 pm)...

Sir Gaucho only noticed some unparalled use of the PK and FK...

the Hardware and Software section of our documentation...

there is no DATE entity that must be included in our system...

and that's it...

we will pass the edited documentation and rewrited ERD in the manila paper on Monday (March 23)...

Sir Gaucho also noticed that we have this relational schema and he was happy to see that we have such kind of thing that the other group doesn't have...

he also said that our DBMS is good because of its simplicity and and we easily understand all of the things that is included in our documentation....

then...

we left the faculty... maybe it was 2:15pm...

we stay on one of the rooms in the third floor and we start to edit our documentation...

we stay in Rm.318 to edit our docu...

while editing the ERD and the docu...

we eat my baon and laugh while discussing all of the things that Sir Gaucho have said...

when suddenly...

we hear a noise from nowhere...

it sounds like a chair that is being pulled at the corridor...

but when we looked outside noyhing is there... no chair and no student at all...

we only think that its just a noise from somewhere and continue on what we are doing...

then...

about past 5pm...

we set off in another room (Rm.316) because the janitress at Rm.318 said that she's going to clean the room and we may stay at the lobby if we want to...

when we are in Rm.316....

a CS student talk to us....

he ask us if Maam Villapando can boorow the laptop because Maam Villapando will present a report in front of her classmate in the SGS...

but...

we decided not to lend the laptop because we are still editing our docu...

then he evaporate... still looking for someone who can help Maam Villapando...

then...

maybe 5:30pm...

the janitress of the Rm.316 came and she's going to clean the room...

when we are about to leave the room...

we saw a blue handkerchief at the floor...

i thought that it was own by May, but she said it was not hers...

if it wasn't the handkerchief of anyone of us.... maybe it was from the janitress...

but...

the janitress just sweep it away together with the other dirt and garbages inside the room...

it's a horrifying thing.... =S

we try to edit our docu outside the Rm.318...

but suddenly...

Maam Villapando appeared... Joan and May run away... but I and Berna try to escape but we have no choice coz she have seen us...

She ask us if she can borrow the laptop coz her presentation is not able to run on other laptops...

then we go to the faculty again...

and charge the laptop and insert the disc...

the presenation was not able to run in Media Player so i try to run it using the Nero Player...

then...

it run...

we all hear the voice of Maam Villapando and Sir Jay Fuentes...

Maam said that their presentation will be at the Accre room and she will just borrow it until she finished her presentation...

maybe about 6pm...

I enter at the faculty to help the masteral students set up their laptops...

Maam Juliet Ramos is also there... she has her own laptop... but she didn't use it...

and we wait outside the library...

an hour passed...

the presentation wasn't finished yet...

so we decided to sit above the tables and do some wacky things...

we first try to make a wave... from the end of one's arm up to the other one...

then when darkness and silencre fills up the floor...

we start to tell horror movies that we have watched...

the Grudge, Ring-O, One Missed Call, the DollMaster, etc.

we are sometimes horrified on the stories that we are narrating....

and have fun on all the things that we are saying...

we laugh....

and talk about many issues....

then...

Maam Villapando invites us to enter the Accre room because of the gratitude that she owes us...

She invites us to eat inside and drink...

she gave us Lemon square cakes and Coke....

we noticed that Sir Bouing (he is the teacher of Maam Villapando and the other Masteral students inside the room they are presenting their audio-visual work and Sir will grade it...)is speaking in tagalog and laugh together with the other professors...

then...

Sir Bouing ask us to stand up and observe the things that he will instruct to his students...

he gave a sheet of paper to each and every student and instruct them to create something on the piece of paper that he gave to them...

he only gave them a minute to do it....

the 4 of the students make a boat, 2 of them make an airplane, and Maam Juliet make a tie...

Sir Bouing explain what are the meanings of the things his student have done...

the only thing we like is his explanation about the tie that Maam Juliet have made...

he says that the tie represents Maam Juliet goal to tie all the people inside this university and make a bond with another...

then... he shut the lights and let us feel the darkness...

then... he open it again and explain why he shut the light...

he says that if a person cannot see the anything and he/she nothing to do with it or he/she has doing nothing to enlighten the room... he/she will just bring the university into darkness and failure...

then... we applause for his nice lecture...

he thanked us for being the observers of his class...

and also with the other professors...

we left accre and went to the third floor to get Maam Villapando's things...

I've observed that she is afraid of the dark... coz she's saying something about creepy things that may appear while we are walking...

then...

we enter the faculty and after a minute or two... we left the room and shut the lights...

as we are walking...

maybe...

its a part of my "kapraningan"....

i hear a buzzer that cracks the silence in NEU...

i tell it to May, Joan and Berna...

and when we are near in the main gate...

i saw that the lights at the Gym are still open...

i think that someone is still there and someone is practicing...

May said that it was just Kuya Larry who just testing the buzzer if it still works well...

but...

it doesn't change my opinion that someone is still there...

then...

Maam Villapando get our name so that she give us a credit on the things that we have done on that day....

hehehehe.... additional grade in CS242...

we left Era maybe about 830pm...

and silence exist in the whole university...

and at my last glimpse at the Gym...

thinking that maybe...

someone is there...

and will make my day happy again...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

the end of School Year is near...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

ang bilis2 tlga...

2m...

tpos n ang mga exams...

malapit n kming matapos s mga defense...

karamihan...

bakasyon n ang iniicp...

boring nmn n kc ang exam week...

masarap mgpakasaya pagkatpos ng mga hardship s mga profs...

hay...

mamimiss ko tlga ung mga friends ko...

ung mga taong nging kaclose ko sa ERA...

ung mga nagpapatawa...

nangiinis...

mga kumag n nanjan sa tabi tabi...

mga friends...

and crush...

hay...

lahat nga nmn ay may katapusan...

hirap tlgang mbuhay ngaun...

pero at least...

naexperience kong maging college student...

uminom ng mga "HARD" drinks...

nagka allergy...

nagkaroon ng mga katampuhan...

hay...

sana maextend ung college lyf ko...

sana lng talga...

hay...